You are the sun
Hi darling. Hi handsome.
If you’re a Grey’s Anatomy fan or know someone that is I’m sure you’ve seen the scene I’m about to quote from the spicy, intelligent Christina Yang. The scene where she is leaving for Switzerland but then came back to do the infamous dance party in the doctors sleep room with Meredith, her person. That part gave me anxiety as I thought that woman was never going to leave- I’m glad she didn’t let her fear get in the way of her dreams :) Anyways, the scene where she reminds Meredith that her dreams shouldn’t be clouded over by Derek’s (rip) Washington DC job for the president.
Have you ever caught yourself pulling yourself back from an idea or dream due to guilt from loved ones that you would leave behind? In some situations there just isn’t a choice, but in most cases the only person holding you back is you. It’s so hard making these decisions, making decisions that you know you will miss out on birthdays, graduations, daily conversations, the ability to see your friends and family everyday… that is a feeling that in return should remind you that you have a good life. You have things worth missing. But, lying to yourself and not living your truth because of others is not fair. You may be called crazy and it will be hard leaving what is comfortable… but just think about how much more you will shine. Whether this new dream be a new job, going back to school, picking up a new hobby, moving across the world, dumping your boyfriend/girlfriend. Living your day with no change leads to a plateau life. Change is scary, but so very good.
They May Be Very Dreamy
Oh honey, they may be the most attractive thing you’ve ever laid your eyes on. They may be successful and have promised you a life full of financial stress (whew why am I about to throw this away) (jk). Are they letting you be you though? They might not even realize it and it may not even be their fault in this. YOU have to be honest with yourself. You were okay before you met them, you’ve gone through obstacles where they weren’t there and overcame it with so much strength. Now I’m not telling you to leave your person right now, by golly if you are happy and living your damn life please continue. I am just allowing you the thoughts of maybe having that serious conversation with your partner that you need to fulfill a dream of yours. If they aren’t on board with it and willing to support you then another conversation might need to happen. If they support you, oh man I will be so happy for you. If they call you silly, well then I’ll show them the door for you. Life is too short to stay stagnant in your life. Don’t come to the end of your life and think about all of the “what if’s”… I hope you get to the end of your life and think “look at everything that I did.”
You are the sun
The first step is to believe this. You are the sun. You are the brightest light in your life. Let yourself feel and embrace this light of yours. Do you want to know why I chose to call this page Find Your Yellow? When you step out on a sunny day, you are instantly embraced with the sun’s hug. This hug makes you feel warm, happy, safe. This is what I want you to find within yourself. The light is already there, you just have to discover it :)
Find Your Light <3
