ACJ
To My Little Boy Who Changed My World
Never would I have thought that someone so little could change how I view the world
To change my 9-5 dream job into a dream of spending those hours with you instead
The degrees will always be there, they helped me find the other half of you in Phoenix. In this moment I stepped away from my career for you, for our family. The late-night shifts make it all worth it for our days together.
My bank account is closely monitored now but that strain is worth it as you smile up at me in the afternoon
You made me view people differently, how we were all once so little ourselves. How heartbreaks of the past were silly to begin with and questioning why the hurt was even started. I view just how we treat others and the power of having friends and family who celebrate and encourage you. You have no idea how lucky you are to have the people that love you Aspen.
Being your mom has made me want to own up to my mistakes, not dwell on them but to ensure I am a better version of myself every single day. I will never reach the point of perfection as that level is unreachable for anyone. I promise to you that I will keep trying and learning for our family.
It is wild how someone who can fit in your arms is able to teach you so many things about yourself. How you made me relearn things about who I thought I was. Sometimes it feels like I’m relearning basic tasks alongside you.
The title of mom has made me look back on the phases that are years away from you now. I hope to teach you to love unapologetically because the people who you think will be there forever may not. My hope is to teach you kindness and to not sweat the small stuff even when they seem so big in the moment. The hope is to give you a safe space where you are able to be whoever you choose to be. A place where you get to be your wild, little boy self. My wish is to have multiple muddy footprints in the house made from you, your sibling/s and fur siblings from playing in the rain outside. Your dad and I want you to be able to feel comfortable talking to us about anything and you don’t fear our reactions. You’re figuring out this life of unknowns just like us.
There will be mistakes. There will be complete failures. That’s inevitable. The perfect parent or family doesn’t exist but what does exist is a home where love is bursting out the front door.
I love you ACJ <3
For those of you reading, if you haven’t checked out Luke Comb’s Fathers & Sons Album…check it out… with 10,000 tissues.