Trust Me
This is a poem I wrote when I was going through one of my darkest times years ago & here I am releasing those feelings to you
“Trust Me”
He was charming, known to many and wanted by all
She was strong, but too willing to fall even as she was warned many times
“Trust Me” he said
He knew how to reel her in, like a lost fisherman looking for the distant light
She saw the cross bones, warning for her to turn back. But the longing of the potential treasure at the end pushed her to continue
“Trust Me” he said
He strayed but never admitted. How does he cover up this time?
She heard but believed as his sorry’s got more sorry and his professing of love with words grew louder
“Trust Me” he said
He strayed too far and can’t turn back time. She’s living with his actions and taking the consequences.
He inflicted pain that would make a memory last a lifetime
She’s drowning and fighting for the surface.
“Trust Me” he lied
Wow. I want to hug this girl right here. I read this after writing these words in my notes app on my phone years ago. I avoided it, I was avoiding it like I avoid the dang dentist because I didn’t want to bring those memories to my present. But, I didn’t get sucked in. Actually, quite the opposite happened. Releasing feelings I hadn’t fully let go of was what happened. Weak was what I felt about my past self, but that word would never be a word I would describe now. I’d call myself courageous, strong, surviving. I told myself I would never let myself be treated like that ever again and I had a large time of what kiddos (haha I’m jk it’s my age) call the “single phase” or “finding yourself” phase and I’m grateful for that. I won’t ever stop advocating for my well-being and what I’m not willing to stand for in a relationship of any kind. Stop chasing and start finding genuine - genuine friends, genuine coffee, genuine support, genuine co-workers. Find and grow love in every bit of your life-it makes it a whole lot better, I promise :)
I found healthy. I found safe. I found comforting. I found loving. I want that for you too-don’t settle for anything that makes you feel uneasy. Don’t be unkind to yourself with an unkind love.
Trust Me.
Find Your (kind) Yellow, Love <3